God will fight for you.  You need only be still. Exodus 14:14

I felt hopeless. My prayers weren’t being answered. For three years I watched and prayed, and things just weren’t working out the way I thought they should.  My sense of justice was unnerving me, and my lack of control left me with nothing else I could do other that pray.

Honestly, it didn’t feel like enough.   

I prayed more than I ever have, with a tear stained pillow to prove it. I couldn’t sleep. My soul ached in the brokenness that I saw, and the inability to fix it, that I wondered if God was waiting for me to step out in faith and do something. The weight was so great, that while I didn’t know for sure, I had to try.

I think the fact that both times the doors closed, gave me reassurance that while my heart broke over the circumstances, that it was not my job to fix it.

It was another lesson for me to learn. The reminder that I am not in control.  Lord knows that is a lesson God has had to teach me over and over again.  I want to do everything in my power to solve the problem.  It is so hard to watch situations unfold that we can’t do anything about, but we need to remember whose fight it is.

In hindsight, my desire to be part of a solution was my lack of trust that God had it under control.  He didn’t need my intervention.  He needed me to follow His lead, but instead I was trying to play savior.

It is within His ability, not above it.  He sees. Nothing is unknown to him.

You keep track of all my sorrows, and have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. Psalm 56:8

Where are you feeling hopeless? What fight do you need to lay at His feet? Where does your trust need to grow in the waiting?